somehow i'm not so concerned about tml

you're just walking out.

just like her.

and there's nothing i can do.

never wanted to say goodbye

i can't believe i actually told fauzi and luara the reason.
damn it
never wanted anyone to know.

somehow,
i'd had prayed for one more week til the results are out.
why is everything happening so fast.
i don't want to see her walk out again.

yet again,
it was just like that day.

i hate this sickening feeling.

why the hell am i so confused.
and there's so little time.

how was i going to let her know.

that some things in life are nothing and everything.
and that she was indeed everything.

i missed the chance years back.
this time.

i'm afraid the same thing will happen.

SO ANGRY AT MYSELF.
COWARD
CAN'T EVEN TELL SOMEONE SOMETHING.
DAMN


why the hell did i tell laura the reason.

okokok.
promised james to blog AGAIN.

hate typing now.
my hands are full of perfume
yuckkk
fag.

why is everyone asking me about this friday?
okok
my expectation
chi=1
eng=2
chem=1
phys=1
ss=1
geog=1
emaths=2
amaths=2
jap=2

haha.
should be able to graasp chi,eng and humanities.

satisfied now everyone?
stop pestering me for my quota.

actually it'll be niceee to see mrs loh and the rest again on friday.
kinda missed those days when the whole class will start the day in an uproar.
wahhaha. miss those dirty talks with gene.
according to him
they were the pinnacle of our secondary edu.
couldn;t agree moreee.

sybil's mom called me?!
she sounded really hysterical.
think she sounded as if i lost choh's phone.
=(
oh well
parents can really show their concern in a peculiar manner.

hmmm..
gonna miss mI.
as in the people.
not the frreaking school pls.
if there was ever a soil erosion...
good luck to us all

ok.this is long enough.
i'm gonna have heavier eye bags.

eric has officially taken over me in track 081.
and i've officially been insulted.
him?!

oh no...

tuesday

keep having stomach cramps today.
blardy yong nian kept acting gay.
laughed til i wanna poP.

nothing much today.
econs teacher didn't come
toots
i like econs.
=)

after sch, went home to meet up with gwee,james and jas.
its been awhile since the four of us got together again.
hmm...
was all having fun when gwee mentioned..'there used to be 5 of us'

hmmm.
that was so long ago..
something which i had chosen to forget about.
still remembered how badly jasmine and gwee cried.
still remembered how james just stood there with his mouth opened when he heard abt it.
i don't recall what i did.

hmmm
perhaps i choose not to.
it was really painful to hear such a thing.
but no matter.
i'll never forget sammie.
and we'll all smile when we mention her.
=)......

some things are really not to be forgotten.
but for others,
if you really want it.
just go ahead to do it.

that's something i've learnt today.

i have no idea what's happening to me.
i'm not likeee this?!
sucks.
maybe it was because i was reminded of sammie that's why i was so afraid..
i'm so sorry princess.

now i don't deserve forgiveness.

pS: eric got chosen to take over me?!
wtf
he can't even kayak!

ok.today's crapppp
got punished for being late for pE.
walao.
it was qutie shiok. but no warm up?! hands all stiff..

nothing much today. cept' i stained melvin's shirt.

i still need you
i still care about you.
i still feel you
like i'm right besides you