ok screw everything else
prelims are dawning
suck
and this fridae or thursday we're receving back our chinese results.
wtf.
i think i'll get it back with sweaty hands...
i mean like you sit in your seat.
watching our other friends get their slips...
watching their facial expression can be a killer.
then when the teacher reaches near your name..
you suddenly bank out?
thinking wad if i didn't studied enough...
wad if i did not do as well as i thought i would.
seriously..
i'll be hell of depressed if i dont get A.
some holidae this is.
at least i'm confident for my english orals..
for the debaters that is..
lol...chee choong was like orals? nothing one lah.
lol.
oh well...
met up with clarry and her friends after playing with charles and co.
its amazing even after we passed out our squad remains undivided.
probably not so much for ong..
can see he's really shunned aside by us.
can't really help to say he deserves it.
after all fiasco we've been through with that bugger..
been invited to a dance by clarry..
the thing is that i don't know how.
eurrghh.
think i better tell her i'll be sick on that dae.
=)))
time has really changed.
we were no longer what we used to be.
no more heartland craze
no more bball madness... haha..remember how we used to play in the rain.
no more fawning over gals. haha. not so for delon i think.
lemme see... wad else
yeaahh...
i guess we've grown up quite a bit.
brandon, eugene, vincent, delon and myself..
pretty much eccentric,
i don't think we'll converge into a smilar path whereby we all walk.
i left out zi ming and rui jia.
they are, without a doubt, our bosom friends.
but like wad eugene always said,
little are the times we spent together.
zi ming had always been depending on kong's opinions
and daniel, recently, have been keeping us at an arm's length.
can't help but feel this ripple of anger whenever we ask him to go out with us and the reply we get is always 'no'
from hearsay..he has family problems?
hmmm.
hope everything is fine with him.
live,let and learn.
life, i guess.. can really at times tease us.
streaks of irony can flash right before you without even knowing.
take for example...
if a guy likes this gal he meets on the bus,
he'll always look out for her everyday.
wake up escp early just to take the bus she takes.
each time he looks at her,
he somehow feels elated and senses this feeling of delight.
he'll dread the moment he gets off the bus.
even after he leaves, the more he think about her,
the more he is consumed by his feelings of delight.
yes, magical the moment may be.
but sadly, life disallows such moments for long.
the boy would then one day find his eye-candy or even his so called adolescent 'crush'
would cease to appear.
or maybe he'll find that she has her eyes for another person.
so it comes down to whether the boy would continue to be consumed by his liking for the girl in secret,
whereby he stands in the shadows while the girl might or might not even
be aware of his existence.
the boy, then again, might even choose to stride on a agressive tone and approach the girl.
friendship might be forged, and may even lead to a point where both parties are smittened by each other. in other words, a relationship
yet again, what are the odds of this happening?
the girl might even get offended by his actions and would leave a lasting impression
which would tarnish the boy's image.
pondering over all these examples,
i guess life's irony comes from one single factor.
whether or not we make the right decision in a given period of time.
i mentioned 'in a given period of time' because one can make all his/her correct decisions but coming at the inapproriate time.
just like the boy whom secretly likes the girl he meets on the bus.
the girl might even be secretly in love with that boy when he doesn't even know it.
the bo might spend days, weeks or even months comtemplating whether he is able to even carry out a simple task such as to go up to the girl and say hi.
he might take ages before he'd pluck up enough courage.
but by then, the girl would have been long gone.
yes.
so i suppose whether life has been good or cruel to us,
boils down to whether, we, as mammals equiped with high-end intellectual, make the accurate decision at the precise moment.
sometimes, what we do, would tear our entire life into pieces just becuase of that few decisions made in the wrong moment.
split-second timing is all about love.
oh,
i did not mention this love-love thing because of myself hor.
i DO NOT like anyone on the bus, ANYHOW.
im merely citing an example. EXAMPLE. you can read, can you.
stop getting those complicated thoughts in your head please.
haha..
amazing how people can think so critically and creatively.
which of course i am no dount amoung these people.
have been thinking about
her.yes.
her.not that i like her like i used to.
but still.
all the wrong decisions i've made at the wrong time.
some may be right, but completely off-timed
some were entirely uncalled for.
like the damn airport thingy.
arugh
oh well
what has passed, is past.
life like, i said, is ironic.
love. is, an entire different branch of topic.
uncanny.
but~! the results of these two aspects still relies on our decisions and split-second timing.
and whether or not we have the heart to do it.
what we do in life.echoes in eternity.
