WTF !!!!!!

i won't let you bury it

honestly.
i have no idea wtf i'm put on this cursed planet for.

spent half the time giving in to people and trying to make them smile.

it all amounts to fucking nothing.

school.
church.
friends.

i don't really care what people say.
but recently i'm clueless why i've lost my cool.

jas once said i get bullied easily cos i'm too easygoing.
wtf

is this planet so screwed up that even nice people cant exist any longer

you have just broken my last straw.
well done.

i've have had enough of this shit.

everyone can go die for all i care.
uh.
actually i do care.
wtf is wrong with me

when i know EVERYTHING will amount to NOTHING.

why the hell do i care.
why the hell do i care.
why the hell do i care.

ever since you gave me that look.
everything tumbled.

everyone around me treats me like fuck cos i'm just some pushover.

sound like some pathetic nutcase.

isn't that what YOU think of me.


who can i trust.

ah fuck it lah.

i have no idea how to bring across my message subtly to you.
ah screw it.

what a joke it is
all those who are important to me
take me as some transparent fool.

i don't mind being a joke if you're happy actually.
but
i think i'm gonna snap.
nah
i've snapped.

cheers to the biggest joke on earth.
nah wait. i'm too insignicant for that title.

and no, it ain't depression.
i'm just fucking angry at why i'm even changing oxygen to carbon dioxide.

make people happy?
what about me?

who makes me happy.
or rather.
who'd want to make me happy.

haha.
thats the point.
i think i'm so strong to put a smile on everyone.
haha
when in the end

i'm the one who needs a smile.

God gimme a damn sign.
a dream
a miricle

any fucking thing.

my parents used to say AARON YOU ALWAYS THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE IN THIS WORLD'

exactly.
i'm all alone.

no smiles.
no laughter.
no warmth.

i've become numb.

you've showed me the reason why i'm even alive.

for your entertainment.

uh

topsy turvy days.

with much work undone
with the seemingly shorter times.

and school's not helping.

there seem so little people in class you can confide in.
no matter how you nicely you treat them over and over again.
it never pays.

yeah.
nice guys sure finish last.
i get it, i get it.

chng was talking abt her np camp which i was supposed to go-.-
which really reminds me of the times of our spitfire squad.
everyone could count on the other.

no matter.
thank god for those very few in class i can hang on to.

yes and of course the 3 other musketeers.haha

i think
no
i know
God is always playing games with me

i've got a headache

and i dont think she knows i'm referring to her.

):

the violins.
that sound.

my mind is just a crutch.

would you be someone to wipe your eyes.

yes.
the violins.

is this what you want?

i cant remember all the simple things we know.

my mind is just a crutch.

do i still hope.

would you miss me when i'm gone.

is this the last song?



somehow. i'm scared.

i hate you God.

i think i've changed my perspective on guy-wannabes.
ok fine.
bungs.

just when aaron was rotting his life away at compass,
leading a life pretty much any 18 year old would do.

this havoc-looking girl, or rather 'she' remotely looks like a she,
but yes, i was able to distinguish her from a guy.

donned with blingblings and this crazily spiked hair..
and i mean crazily.
like sonic or smth
hands with all the spiky bangles etc
uhh
you get the picture.

she asks aaron in a very deep and crude voice
'OEI LE ZI DAO TOILET ZAI DA NI SHI BO'

for you people who do not comprehend dialect...

she was asking where the toilet was.


gosh. not that aaron was intimidated,
just that he was astounded by her remarkable social skills.

yesyes.
from this day.
a new light has been shed on bungs for aaron.

other than that eye opener,

aaron did nothing else but eat,sleep,play
and stone.
and message.

and wonder why he couldn't have held on to the simple things he had.

in the end
i suppose it all comes down
to whether i choose to or not.

and i'm not trying to attract your attention.
tskkkk.

forget it.
this is just a slippery slope
everything will just go tumbling down sooner or later.

oh yes
class chalet from tues to wed.
class chalet is yet of an overstatment.

uh
me+chow+kia+zac+sy+biqi
wooo
6/19 attendance.
remarkable.

anw it was still quite memorable nonetheless.
eg. killing of the cockroach
eg. the blasting of hysteria until out neighbours should've got completely sick of the song

AND I LOST MY SHOES LAH
wtffff
so infuriating.
my 29.80 bucks shoeeeeeeee
wahhh

not that the price matters but argh.

had to wear zac's so-called $21 slippers back
which i doubt cost more than 3 bucks..

yeah well.
chng passed her cd test
(((((:


maybe sometimes God really loathes me.

thanks to CARMEN,

i sorta like retro songs now ((:

not saying that westlife is retro..
but still.
there's still a nostalgic feeling you get when you hear nick's voice.

well,
its march hols.
yet another week of holidays for me to raot my life away.

and dont ask about my competitions.